I'm back from my mini-break. Kinda a bit confused about whether I should continue with SplenDaddy or not... the balance between sex work and reallife is delicate and this scenario is messing up my dividing lines.
I'm going to list pros and cons and welcome any feedback. If someone could make the decision for me that would be nice. Ha.
Pro: Hot diggity dog sex. Some of the hottest I've had in a long time. I'm so cock hungry for his gorgeous member that I'd cut it off and spoon it if I could. Or shove it up a nostril, or in an ear, if it would fit. I cannot get enough of this guy in the bed.
Con: His wonderful cock is stuck to a somewhat passionless man. He sucks at warm up for sex - not very affectionate before foreplay starts and not even very affectionate after sex. Plus he's That Shower Guy from Sex in the City - the one that always has to shower after sex - urgently. In fact he spends more time in the bath room several times a day then anyone I've ever met. Even a call for kinky office sex in my lunch hour saw him folding his goddamn pants over a chair and lining up his shoes.
Pro: Always immaculately presented and wonderful smelling. Lack of affection maybe balanced out my sweet gestures like romantic getaway location (a honeymooners place last night!!) and nice emails.
Con: There is no money in this for me.
Pro: There are great escapes from real life and wonderful suspensions of decision making as well as forcible removal from phones and laptops and the net etc. I feel at peace after a trip away (well, when I'm not analysing the fuck out of it)
Con: He snores. And it's hardly nice to have to stick a finger in an ear to try and sleep.
Pro: He snores but I'm in a luxury bed in a gorgeous location all fulfilled after sex, fine food, lovely drinks and more sex.
Con: The more sex we have the more my oxytocin is going to kick in, the more cuddling I will want and the more this faux-intimacy may start to remind me of what I'm missing by being single and it might blow the cap on my "I don't want a relationship" vibe and I will all of a sudden be obsessed with finding a lover to hold me and love me. Blurgh.
Pro: Thinking about him is at least stopping me from dating before I'm ready after a fucked up break up. The small bits of intimacy may hold me over until my heart is healed and I can dump him, reconsider the sex work and then put my self on the market.
Con. He's kinda dull and our conversations are boring and I'm looking over my shoulder at dinner for some excitement.
Pro: That cock. In me. His soft lips. On me.