Sunday, February 1, 2009

A fat man writes...

Here is the email I said I might share. This guy had a personal ad on a web site, and I sent a note saying if he didn't find anyone to consider an escort..you'd be surprised how many men respond to that approach (which just goes to again prove my point that men advertising for NSA sexual hookups are mostly just looking for a "free whore" no matter what they say to the contrary).

Well, he's a big guy, and this is what he had to say:

Hi Curvy,

And thank you for the email... 'not scared as much now!

You've created a great yearning within. (I'm sure you get that comment all the time!!) I'm wrestling with my inner desires in being with a large lover.

Me? I'm fortysomething. I am happily married, really am - and have been for a very long time. My partner (my first and only) is, what society would say, "the perfect average size" - Small/medium and appropriate for all things normal in the western world... However, for all of my life, I've always been a solid/roundish but very active (and fit!) BHM. The classic, lifelong fat person. I've got the emotional scars that society has given me to prove it. I am a conundrum - Successful, but a fatty. We both love each other dearly. Some would say, that for a fat guy, "you are very lucky to have what you've got". Life is good...

However there is this tiny part of me that would really like to be embraced and cared for by a larger woman... Well at least once.... To be with someone who can share a like minded physical and emotional intimacy. A special intimacy that only a larger person would know. Someone who can understand the pain... I guess, I don't get that deep inner part fulfilled by my wife. I'd know that she'd try very hard to but its just not the same...

Oh but to visit you!

"Between, the idea and the action lies the shadow".... It would shatter her...

My biggest and boldest step thus far is to put a lame posting to contemplate meeting a like minded soul. I hadn't really thought about it much further than that. I guess I'd be having this very same conversation in a bar somewhere and not knowing the outcome...

BTW, I've never told anyone this before.....(I'm sure you get that statement all the time as well!)

......Now that I've formally "owned" my desires, by telling someone that might be able to empathize with my inner journey, I feel better for it.............

Thank you for your polite and gentle introduction to your world. It is very inviting...

....I just might, one day....

But if I don't see you, I hope you won't be offended. You may now understand why.

I'll leave you be and again I thank you for your time.

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